Still feeling frustrated.  My eating is terrible.  I've been piecing on chips, carrots and almonds.  Last night I made cookies and ate three.  Today, I made cookies and ate three.  What's wrong with me?  I work and day shift and a swing the next day.  I know that sugar makes my brain foggy.  I can't have a foggy brain tomorrow.  I've got to be able to focus.

What do I do?  Do I go back to eating regular?  Do I stick with Keto.  I really love how I feel eating Keto.  I feel better.  My body feels better.  I'm not seeing results because I'm not sticking to this way of eating.  I need to plan.  This is a common thought over the past 30 years of my life.  I have to do this.  I'm running a half marathon in June.  I can't run it at this weight.  I have to focus.  I have to do this.

I found this thought.  I love it.  Today was hard.  Running was hard.  Lack of sleep.  I'm getting a cold.  I'm not eating the way I want to eat.  If Marc can fight what he's fighting - I can fight my eating habits.  I can do this.

Planning
Breakfast - scramble eggs and sausage
Lunch - ham and cheese
Snack - celery and cheese
Dinner - Pork Roast, Broccoli (roasted with parmesan)
 Done - Planning is done.

I just get all excited about this and then I slide in my eating.  Too many carbs. This is going to sound wrong but I eat too many carrots.  I love them.  They are so sweet and yummy to me.  As a result, the scale is not moving in the right direction.  I'm frustrated with myself.  I know what I have to do - why am I not doing it?
Planning - I need to plan.  I need to track.

Another tired day.  Not sure if it's Keto flu or what.  I'm just physically exhausted.  I did get up and go to the gym.  No running today but a tabata work out.  I walked for a few minutes to warm up and then got my timer out and a mat to work on.  I looked in the big mirror and just saw fat.  Seriously.  It was a moment I won't forget.  When I looked in the mirror I just saw fat.  I didn't want to be in front of that mirror.  I put everything away and walked the track a couple times.  Then it hit me - That mirror wasn't going to win.  I needed to go back and work.  I got everything back out and went to work.  I only did it 4 times and I focused on my upper body with some leg raises.  When I was done, the person in the mirror wasn't the same person.  I just saw me - It was all okay.  So glad I did my tabata today.
Just a note - I've done something to my foot.  It hurts on top.  I'm guessing a stress fracture or the beginning of one.  I'm icing it today an taking ibuprofen.  I can't stop running at this point.  I just started and I'm going to need all the time I can to be ready to run the half marathon in June.
I've noticed a few things.  The awesome Nike jacket I got for Christmas was tight around the hips and I had to pull it to get it to zip.  Not any more.  It is loose when I zip it.  My pants are also getting looser in the butt and waist.  I'm not loosing as fast as I would like but things are happening.
Weight loss - I think I'm eating too many carbs.  I know that almonds are killing me.  I know that I will lose at a faster rate if I don't eat them.  They are such an easy go to food -- that needs to be fixed and soon.
Well - Happy Friday!  I'm icing my foot now and then it's off to the shower and house cleaning.  Have a great Friday!

I ran today.  I've had graveyard shifts for the past two night and I totally felt them today.  Running was hard.  I was tired.  When I got out of the shower, I got dressed and just crashed.  Who knew that I needed motivation to blow dry my hair.
When i work graves, everything is off.  Eating, sleeping, workouts... everything in life.  It's weird.  I need to work it out though and get through it.
ug... that's how I'm feeling.

So, minimal damage after a yummy pecan roll Sunday night.  I have one more graveyard shift to go and then we'll see how that affects my weight loss.  I am at 239.2 when I woke up around 15:00 today.  I'm happy to see the 230s again.  I extremely happy to be losing instead of steadily gaining.  Tomorrow when I get up, I'd like to go lift or run before I pick up my kids.  Just get some energy created.

Okay... I'm a little excited.  Saturday I did my scheduled 3 mile run/walk.  It was tough.  I'm not going to lie.  I have to base and building it is tough.  Today, I was scheduled to run 2 minutes and walk 2 minutes.  I was super worried, one minute of running has been hard.  I did it.  I really did it.  That last 2 minute run I did quit 15 seconds earlier - I was just tired.  That part is mental, I know.  I should have pushed through.  Next time I will.  I'm feeling great!

I do have to admit, I made pecan rolls last night.  I ate two.  They were delicious.  This morning, I woke up feeling bloated and yucky.  Seriously yucky.  Sugar isn't worth it --- PERIOD.  

Alright - time to clean out the fridge.  I've been dreading it for weeks.  It has to be done.  

Feeling great.  I did some tabata at the gym today.  I selected exercises that are specific for running.  It felt good!  I am tired.  I will admit to a nap each day this week.  I need to get my vitamins and minerals going. I'm still going down in weight.  My body is feeling so much better.  Loving KETO WOE!

I'm feeling great.  I know that cookies and cinnamon rolls taste DELICIOUS but the side effects of the sugar just aren't worth it to me right now.  Today, I'm going to plan some menus with food I have on-hand.  Planning is key.  I need to be on top of things.

I ran again today. Only 30 minutes of running 1 minute and walking 2 minutes.  It feels like I accomplished something!  The fire guys were running and asked me to jump in.  I did for a couple minutes.  Never again will I not be in shape enough to do this.  I want to healthy.  I want to be physically capable of running a 5k always.

I love eating this way.  I  feel better.  My energy is better.  My mind is more clear.  I'm not bloated.  I went 9 days without eating sugar and felt so good.  Then.... I made cinnamon rolls.  I had one, then two.  They tasted fabulous but physically felt terrible.  The next morning, I started KETO again.  I can do this.  I haven't lost the weight I was hoping to.  I attribute this to eating to many almonds, which equaled too many carbs.  Same with carrots.  Too many carbs. For the next two weeks, I'm not going to eat any nuts and definitely no carrots.  I believe this will make a huge difference in the weight loss.  I'm excited to see.

It's been just over a week and I'm feeling much better about myself.  Not much has changed physically but mentally I feel like I'm moving in the right direction.
I ran Wednesday with my friend H - It felt good to move again.  I was soooo tired and my feet hurt from the extra weight.  Tomorrow we have our "long" run of 3 miles.  I actually can't wait.  I forgot how great it is to run with someone.  Running was extremely social for  me and it's such an added bonus.
Eating is going great.  I'm trying the KETO way of eating.  I'm on day 3 of no sugar.  I feel good.  I should be in ketosis soon.  I hope I haven't had too many carbs.  I'm not tracking and I just realized the gum I chew has 2 carbs.  Um...
I'm reading my scriptures and saying my prayers.  I'm trying to be better.  I can do this.