I've selected Sunday as my weigh in day.  I just need a consistent day to get on the scales.  Earlier this week I was at 244.6 and today I was at 239.8 - that's great to see.  I KNOW that keto works.  I just have to get my crap together and do it.  I can't afford not to.  I'm not going back to the 240s!  Bye! Bye!

Running was tough yesterday.  I intended to do my long run of 5 miles.  Instead, my body was tired, lethargic.  Running was hard.  Even after getting through the first mile, it was still hard.  I did 3 miles in 50 minutes (SLOW) and quit.  At my peak of running I was running a 10:30 mile - right now I'm at 13:30.  I'm so slow.  I will get faster as I get stronger.

Keto doesn't fuel my body right now for running.  It will - I know that it will after I become fat adapted.  This gives me even more reason to be strict and not look back.  I need the energy from fat. I need to be able to run.  I need to be healthier.  Running at this weight is pounding on my joints.  My feet are taking a beating.

I can do this!  I can.  I know I can.

"I'm an optimist.  If you dwell on the negative it will hurt you, depress you and really destroy you.  If you work on the positive and dwell on it and seek to bring it to pass, it will make you lighter and brighter, younger and more vigorous.  That's my feeling and that's my program."

President Gordon B. Hinckley

I am struggling.  I know what it takes.  I know what needs to happen.  I just keep praying that I can get it together enough to do it.  Life is never perfect.  Working out and eating right has to happen every day.  It shouldn't matter if I work graves, swing or days.  I have to make it a point to fit it in.  EVERY DAY.

I know that when I write on this blog it helps to keep me focused and I do much better.  I'm going to aim to do that each day.  Working out each day is going to keep me mentally strong.  My work, family and just life seems to weigh me down.  I need to be spiritually strong -- saying my personal prayers and reading the Book of Mormon is a must.  I have to fit this in.  Eating should be my easiest.  I'm trying to eat following the KETO guidelines.  I love it.  I don't feel achy, bloated and tired.  I have energy.  I can feel a difference when this is my focus.  

Action -- all of this needs to be put into action.  Consistent.  Every day.  Do it.

Today was pretty amazing.  It started out slow and I was pretty emotional from work last night.  I needed to do my long run today.  Fifteen minutes after starting, my calves and achilles were so tight.  I was dying.  I would run a half a lap and then walk then stretch.  They just were so tight and ached like crazy.  I did this awful routine for 5 or 6 laps - nothing seemed to help.  I was going to quit at 30 minutes and call it done.  It just hurt and I couldn't find any relief.  When I hit the 30 minute mark, I just kept going.  My calves were feeling much better.  I got to the 40 minute mark and thought I'd just push through to 45.  That turned into a 60 minute run.  I actually felt great.  Let me clarify.  I would walk half a lap and the run half a lap.  That's probably running 1 minute and walking 1.5 minutes.  It's not where my training schedule says I should be but it felt good.  Four miles was goal today and I'm sure I got it in.  I've got to get a new battery for my foot pod so I can use my garmin inside.

Eating is pretty crappy right now.  I did so good last night.  After work, I just binged.  Three cookies later and a half a jar of queso and my emotional frustrations were taken care of.

I know keto works. I know that I feel great eating that way.  I need 30 straight days of keto.  Just 30 --- one day at a time.
Have a great Friday!