My goal this morning was to get myself to the gym and lift.  It was harder than you'd think.

Getting out of bed was hard.  I kept thinking, "I'm too fat to go to the gym."  Seriously?  Who thinks that?  It was actually so real.  It was hard to get up and get dressed and  get out the door.  I did it though.

The road in front of the rec is under construction - physically, it was hard to get to the gym.  When I arrived, I pulled in and there are like five cars.  WTH?  The rec, because it's a holiday will only be open from 7 AM to 5 PM.  SERIOUSLY!

I guess that's my answer to going to lift today.  I went home and hiked/ran on my favorite trail.  I needed this.  I needed to have the fresh air clear my head.  A few people go through my head when I think about losing weight.  This is NOT about other people.  This is about me.  I'm doing this for me.  Will others benefit?  Yes.  I want to set a good example to my kids.  That would be my biggest wish.  I want them to be healthy and happy.

I can do this.  One step at a time.